the sky's the limit!

i've come to the point in my life that change is inevitable. this baring true, i have so many options out there for me. i can continue searching for a teaching position, or i can completely change my future course. i've come to that point on the yellow brick road, but there's no scarecrow to point me in any direction.

upon learning of my non-renewal, i immediately began searching for new teaching positions. i contacted people to give me leads, i applied on district websites, and started hand-delivering resumes. this is what i have known. i am a teacher and it's what i'm good at.

then, after discussion, it was decided that i would go back to school as a full-time student. i would receive my masters degree in education and re-enter the field of education - making a few more dollars this time around.

after some deep questioning and conversation, more options came into play.

yes, i'm good at educating students. but is this all i'm good at? that is still to be determined. with my experience, i'm able to work well with people. i also question the level of stress day-to-day. is education something that i'm going to look back at ten years from now and wonder how the hell i can get out and do something else? and i going to be completely satisfied in my classroom of students day in and day out? these are also unanswered questions.

i've constantly pondered the airline industry, even before meeting gary. i enjoy traveling. i enjoy working with people. i enjoy the freedom to be myself on a daily basis.

this considered, i applied with a few airline companies. although i haven't heard from a couple of interest (and it's only been a short while), i was able to secure a one-on-one interview with a major airliner.

i figure i have absolutely nothing to lose. this is the point in my life where my options are limitless. i can make a major change or simply a small one.

right now, i'm excited about my possibilities. i have a lot going for me right now.

c'est la vie.

i know i've been mia on here for quite a while. by my recent posts you know that there's been a lot going on with my job, etc. it will all work out, that i'm certain. i've been keeping plenty busy with everything else going on, as well. but for now, there are certain things keeping me grounded...or at least preoccupied for a while:

june 2: moving to a nice, new apartment

june 9: my wonderful friends' wedding

june 13: gary's birthday

june 15: end of a stressful school year

june 19: babysitting lillers

june 24: pride

june 26: leaving for week-long trip to london

'cause i got a scholarship to college!

okay, not really, but how could i not quote 'a chorus line'?

so in lieu of my recent post, i've made some decisions about my future plans. i've decided to take a year off of teaching and go back to school full time to get my masters in education. i'm excited about this decision.

i have some fears too. i'm worried about the income that i had and how we're going to be able to support ourselves on one income, plus the student loan supplement. i've decided that subbing is probably the best part-time work, in order to keep my vacations and summers.

i'm hoping to complete my program in one year, including two summer sessions. after that, i don't know what the future holds. i have my own aspirations, but it's not just me anymore...

so aside from storing my massive collections of "teacher things", i'm looking forward to no alarms, jeans daily, and catching up on days. whilst studying, of course!

teacher left behind

this has truly been the week from hell. i walked into work on monday morning only to be told that my contract would not be renewed. as of june 15th, i would be unemployed. i was only given a short excuse of "restructuring" as any reason of my termination.

fuck.

i've gone through a series of emotion: anger, frustration, depression, hurt, anger, and a small feeling of relief.

i have been unhappy at my job for some time now. i started looking into other positions at other schools recently. i thought that perhaps there was something better out there for me that would better suit my philosophy of education and allow me to create a more positive environment in my classroom. but there was a difference; weeks ago i was looking into other options, now i have no other option but to look.

i've thought of things to do to retaliate, to hopefully allow my enemies to feel a small bit of the pain that they have caused me. yet, a good friend suggested that i focus on my future rather than how to get back at my past. it's true, but it's so hard.

i've adopted two attitudes this week. 1) NMP! (not my problem). i just don't care anymore. hit me while i'm down, reprimand me again, or just continue to make my life miserable. but the bottom line is, I DON'T CARE - IT'S NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE! 2) thank you, you did me a favor. like i said, i will soon realize that this has all been a HUGE blessing in disguise. i will find something much better than the atmosphere i was previously working in.

i WILL get through this. it just sucks.

now instead of planning and teaching, my life consists of resumes and cover letters. hopefully interviews will soon follow.