this has truly been the week from hell. i walked into work on monday morning only to be told that my contract would not be renewed. as of june 15th, i would be unemployed. i was only given a short excuse of "restructuring" as any reason of my termination.
fuck.
i've gone through a series of emotion: anger, frustration, depression, hurt, anger, and a small feeling of relief.
i have been unhappy at my job for some time now. i started looking into other positions at other schools recently. i thought that perhaps there was something better out there for me that would better suit my philosophy of education and allow me to create a more positive environment in my classroom. but there was a difference; weeks ago i was looking into other options, now i have no other option but to look.
i've thought of things to do to retaliate, to hopefully allow my enemies to feel a small bit of the pain that they have caused me. yet, a good friend suggested that i focus on my future rather than how to get back at my past. it's true, but it's so hard.
i've adopted two attitudes this week. 1) NMP! (not my problem). i just don't care anymore. hit me while i'm down, reprimand me again, or just continue to make my life miserable. but the bottom line is, I DON'T CARE - IT'S NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE! 2) thank you, you did me a favor. like i said, i will soon realize that this has all been a HUGE blessing in disguise. i will find something much better than the atmosphere i was previously working in.
i WILL get through this. it just sucks.
now instead of planning and teaching, my life consists of resumes and cover letters. hopefully interviews will soon follow.
2 comments:
you WILL most definitely get through this and find a school where your talent and skills are truly appreciated.
I was in one district for 21 years 4 months. my pension only recognizes 19 yrs 1 month. Took another job in another district,I should have stayed where I was.
Trying to better myself and I resigned before being non-renewed. The school was run by the kids, the Principal is a wolf in sheep's clothing. I can't even get an interview... who knows what he is saying or implying.
I live midway between Denver and Colorado Springs, at 56 a new career in a daunting problem I hope to solve. (PLEASE NO multilevel marketing solicitations) I just want to teach English/Language Arts/Reading or Social Studies. It is 3 A.M. I am too tired to think, write or read anything more today. I just hope this makes sense.
I am job hunting everyday all day for a teaching post. I know I have a good resume, I know my letters of reference are excellent. What gives?
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