i had planned to blog about the 'fountains at bellagio' and the amazement i feel each time i see the beautiful sprays of water perfectly choreographed to music...
or the fact that i had a child vomit inside my classroom within five minutes of walking in the door...
but alas i have the pre-winter blues tonight.
my evening started off well, being productive at accomplishing tasks after work. i made a few small purchases for work, picked up a few things at my old apartment, and took some clothes for much-needed dry cleaning and tailoring.
it started going downhill when i sat on hold with bank of america for over 45 minutes just to change my address. i finally gave in and hung up. i decided to start dinner only to realize that the hamburger i needed was still in the freezer. i made a few calls to people which ended when their voicemails picked up.
my grandma, in the hospital for the second time in a week wished not to speak to me because she needed to get her robe on. to hear my grandma through the receiver of the phone, telling my grandpa that she couldn't talk was the final thing to unleash the tears in my eyes.
i am sad tonight. the cold wind and gray skies are a fitting backdrop to this evening's mood.
i long to talk to someone, to muster a smile or half-laugh to provide a small relief for my lonely composure.
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